I like to do nothing. If I have a day off aside from the weekend, I will usually sleep in and just do whatever I want. I've been known to take a day off to just do things around town. Like go to lunch, go shopping, run an errand or two. Those are the best for me. A day without definite plans.
- Mood:
hot
I have a couple. My computer is one. It's my only real way to communicate with anyone. I was so lost when my last computer died. I couldn't really afford a new one, but I also needed one.
Another is my teddy bears. They aren't valuable except to me. They are from Build A Bear. I just love them and they mean a lot to me. They bring me comfort.
Last but not least is my cat. She is the most important thing in my life. I know something led me to the shelter the day I adopted her. I think in a way we needed each other and still do.
- Mood:
sad
Well, not that many. I've known my friends Wendy and Melissa for five years. Others I met through work I've known seven. I don't know anyone longer than that that I still consider a friend.
Who do I miss the most? I had this childhood friend named Michelle. We lost touch when her family moved away. For years after I tried to reconnect with her. It never happened. As an adult I've tried to contact her. A couple of years ago I found her on facebook. She never returned the message I sent her or approved my friend request. Never responded to any emails I sent. I gave up after that.
I also miss the friend I just let go.
- Mood:
sad
I get buyer's remorse for most large ticket items I buy. I just have a hard time parting with money in general. The most recent was buying a new computer even though I had to get one or go without. Wasn't going without.
The worst I ever experienced was when I was in college. I was going on my first trip by myself and decided to go shopping for some new outfits and such. I had never worn makeup and decided to also get a makeover at the mall. I ended up spending over $300 for high end makeup! I kept the receipt for the longest time to remember what I never wanted to do again.
I had hoped to look nice when I went on my trip. I was going to comedy clubs and wanted to dress up and look nice. It worked. I got a lot of compliments. But after that, I started shopping for my make up Wal-Mart.
- Mood:
sick
Well, it depends on what part of my childhood. Once I hit about 10 or 11, movie stars and bands covered my walls. At one point, when I was about 13 or 14, New Kids on the Block completely covered my walls. If I can find pictures, I'll share. It was crazy. I spent one weekend redoing my room so there was not a square inch of wall showing. I was so proud of myself. LOL
My mom never cared what I put up on my walls. I think those who saw it, were either curious or impressed. I'm not sure. I had a couple of kids tell me once when they saw a glimpse into my room (from the front door because my room was right off the front hall) that I had the coolest room they'd ever seen.
- Mood:
sick
The very first one? Let's go with the first after I found Online communities. I think the first one prior to the internet was either General Hospital or Quantum Leap.
So my first online fandom experience was for Whose Line is it Anyway? We called ourselves Whosers. No, I'm no longer a "Whoser" and left that life almost 12 years ago. I did probably everything imaginable in the fandom. I created a website, wrote fanfiction, made fan art, went to meet other fans, went to shows, joined every community, chat room, website and message board I could find.
Like I said, I left the fandom long ago. I don't really hate it or anything. I just lost interest. I've learned since then how much I want to get involved.
My longest lasting fandom has been Twilight/Rob Pattinson. I've learned how much to get involved and when to keep my distance. And since there's so many areas of interest around the actors, there's never a dull moment. And Rob's just too adorable to lose interest in. People can think what they want. I love him to no end.
- Mood:
sick
Well, I'll be honest...I used to be an avid reader. For a while, I read only romance. Then I started reading Young Adult. Now I don't read anything. I can't focus enough to get absorbed into a book. I've tried. Tried to read Shoot the Moon by Billie Letts. Great book, but again couldn't focus to get through it.
But I used to read all the time. My favorite place to read was in the bath. I've also tried reading on the beach when I go. Not too successful at that. Oregon beaches are so cold! I can usually only last maybe 20 minutes before the wind kicks up too much. One time I went to the beach with my lunch and this seagull camped out about 7-10 yard away from me hoping I'd drop some food. Then I started reading and he kept watching me. Creepy bird.
Anyway, the last series I really got into was the Hunger Games books. I just couldn't put them down. I got really into YA books and found so many great new authors. Can't think of them right now. Speak is another great one I couldn't put down. I've read it 3 or 4 times.
Plus, I refuse to get a kindle. I love real books. I have a ton of them. I like how they look and feel.
I hope to pick up a book again once my life gets straightened out a little more. I have boxes of books I bought and never read.
- Mood:
sick
I think I've answered this question before. When I was a senior in high school, there was this kid, Jason. Couldn't stand him. He was one of those kids that made you just want to scream listening to him talk. He used the work "like" every other word. For one year and maybe longer, I managed to completely eradicate that word from my vocabulary.
Basically, hearing him use it, he sounded like a moron. I decided I couldn't stand to hear myself say it either. I've now reverted back to using it again, but not every other word.
I can still remember that guys name. I can also remember the kid in my junior year who kicked my chair. God, I hated that guy.
- Mood:
sleepy
As a rule, I dislike April Fool's Day. The worst one I ever encountered was when I was in the 6th grade. We were just starting a unit on sex education. Our teacher was out on medical leave and the substitute was clueless on everything. We had no structure or any actual assignment. I ended up sitting at a table while all the boys laughed and pointed at the books and pamphlets. I swear, every single boy came up to me and a couple other unpopular girls and either read the most embarrassing parts out loud or asked us to go out with them followed by an "April Fools."
After that, I would beg my mom every single year to not make me go to school on April Fool's. It was one of the worst days I ever spent in school. My mom was a push-over, so she wouldn't make me go. I did this until about my junior year of high school.
To this day, I'm always glad when the actual day lands on a weekend. I usually won't leave my house. Not that I worry about going to work. I just hate the day. On principle I guess.
- Mood:
lonely
Not really a bad habit, but I managed to eliminate the word "like" from my vocabulary for my senior year of high school.
There was this guy I could not stand. He used "like" every other word and really thought he was something. Could not stand him! So errogant. And because of him, every time I used the word "like," I cringed thinking of him. So I worked and accomplished not using it at all.
Of course, that was over 10 years ago and it has snuck back into my everyday word usage.
- Mood:
cranky
Now that my email is connected to my phone, I check it multiple times a day.
- Mood:
tired
My favorite community is
My favorite Twilight community is
- Mood:
tired
I have many weird dreams. Many, many. So I'll just tell you about the 2 I had last night that were weird.
One I'd say was a nightmare, but still weird. I woke up from it a tad scared. I was at work and the big boss (who wasn't really the big boss. I think she's on Law and Order.) came to my desk. She had a list of the files from my hard drive on my work computer. It looked like they took a screen shot of my personal folders from my hard drive. She held it up for me to see and pointed to one file and started berating me. I saw the other files were random word documents that looked like stories or something I had saved. I felt ashamed and as she continued to berate me for this one particular file, I felt worse and worse.
She pointed out that this was a program I wasn't authorized to use and that I didn't use for work related projects. She said she would take it up with my real boss and walked away.
I felt like an idiot and was sure I would lose my job. That was when I woke up.
My second dream was that I was back in school. I don't know why or what for, but I was still working. I went to my first two classes on the first day and managed to get through the first half of the day. I went to work and was about to go to lunch when I realized I still had two more classes that day. I hadn't had any lunch and I needed to be at school like right then. For some reason, I had a banana with me, so I decided I'd just take that to eat.
Then I wondered how I would manage to accomplish school and work full time.
The end of the dream had something to do with a bunch of junk in the trunk of my car that I was meaning to give to charity. I thought I could just take it to a drop off donation site which wasn't that far away.
- Mood:
tired
The earliest memory I have is living with my grandparents when I was around three. My mother and I lived there until I was 4. I remember playing outside and in the sandbox my grandfather made for me. Also riding relied with my cousins in the driveway.
- Location:home
- Mood:
sick
I think my biggest regret this year is anything to do with my ecco roommate . The biggest was ever trusting her. I should have moved out much sooner than I did. Maybe I could have avoided some of the drama I went through.
- Location:home
- Mood:
sick
I'd say the following...
1. My phone
2. My electric blanket
3. My cat
- Location:home
- Mood:
sick - Music:untold stories of the er
This is going to sound really selfish and superficial, but I really thought I would receive nothing this year and that really depressed me. I know Christmas is not about present and getting stuff, but I think it wasn't about the stuff. I was already feeling alone and to not have a Christmas made me feel that much more alone.
I did receive some presents, but my physical gifts weren't the best gifts. I do love the new cell phone I got with a gift card I got. Plus I got a great deal on it. And got an awesome cover to go with it.
The best thing I got was the most amazing greeting from my friend's grandson. He's 4 and for some reason I don't understand, he really likes me. I went to her house for Christmas Eve and as soon as I walked through the door, he jumped up and down calling my name than ran over to give me a hug. I was also invited over to watch movies and snacks on New Year's Eve with her and Tristan. Should be fun.
- Mood:
tired
My life isn't so exciting right now. A few things... A former co-worker opened a store a few towns over. I'd like to go see her and maybe buy something to support her new venture. Also I'd like to get some cleaning done. Both my apartment and my car need to be cleaned. My car looks like a trash dump. My apartment needs an overhaul. Hoping I can feel better soon to get it all done.
I'm allergic to some medications which makes it hard when I have an ear infection or something. Also am allergic to pretty much all shellfish. It sucks because I love shrimp.
- Mood:
blah
I usually partake of the Black Friday deals, but this year I toned it down a little. I wasn't really sure what I wanted anyway. I knew I wanted socks and kind of lost out in that area. Anyway...
At 11ish last night I picked up a shop vac for my new place. Tired of not being able to vacuum. Slept in this morning which I needed more than towels or socks. Had planned to go to JC Penney which opened at 4am. Knew I wouldn't make it at that time. Even if I was at my friend's house until after 1. I did manage to get to the sock sale just under the deadline.
So what was the last thing I bought? It was actually a basket/hamper at the thrift shop down the street and 2 books. For Black Friday, I got a vacuum and 2 sets of new socks. Oh and this afternoon I bought a ticket to see Breaking Dawn.
Definitely toned down from last year where I was up at 3 and out until after 11. Didn't have it in me this year.
- Mood:
sad
I really don't have many, if any, men in my life. But the only guy of any importance right now is my friend's grandson, Tristan. I kind of feel like an aunt I've been around him so much. And he thinks I'm cool. And to a 4 year old, that's cool. I know I'm going to hate it when he grows out of this and no longer wants to hang out with my friend or me. Not thinking of that.
I don't play any instruments, but I wish I learned how to play the piano. Thinking of taking lessons.
When I was maybe 10, I started taking violin lessons. There was a program at my school that provided free lessons and an instrument to under privileged children. I got a violin and when to lessons a couple times a week with a group of kids after school. I was only in the program for a couple of months when I broke my arm. At that point, I couldn't hold the violin, so my mom took me out of the class. It didn't hurt my feelings too badly. I turned to basketball after that because the boy I liked at the time was into basketball.
Never tried the violin again.
Hopefully the piano will stick.
At the end of my work day today, my boss came to me to tell me several people had expressed concern over me. I got a flash of last year when I was afraid I'd be fired after I was told there were complaints about my behavior. This go round, I was trying to keep my troubles out of work. I thought I hadn't done as well as I thought.
I was then told it was based on my FB posts and then I became annoyed. Decided right there I needed to do some adjusting to settings.
She added that it hadn't shown at work. She wouldn't have known if no one had said anything. I breathed a sigh of relief. I told her I was having a hard time, but was trying to keep it out of work.
She referred to our health plan if I need options, etc. She is the HR person.
I just feel like I've been handed too much lately. When do I get a break?
Lately I've been fantacizing about moving to Phoenix. I loved it there. Maybe I will one day.
In the meantime, I've blocked everyone from work on FB. I hate watching everything I say.
I was then told it was based on my FB posts and then I became annoyed. Decided right there I needed to do some adjusting to settings.
She added that it hadn't shown at work. She wouldn't have known if no one had said anything. I breathed a sigh of relief. I told her I was having a hard time, but was trying to keep it out of work.
She referred to our health plan if I need options, etc. She is the HR person.
I just feel like I've been handed too much lately. When do I get a break?
Lately I've been fantacizing about moving to Phoenix. I loved it there. Maybe I will one day.
In the meantime, I've blocked everyone from work on FB. I hate watching everything I say.
I want to be cremated and then my ashes spread somewhere. I haven't yet figured out where. Possibly at the beach or somewhere else I felt at peace.